Because your established science conceives of consciousness as a result of material processes instead of the other way around, it cannot fathom the creative and causal powers of the mind.

Pamela kribbe, The Jeshua Channelings

As a man who has devoted his whole life to the most clear-headed science, to the study of matter, I can tell you as a result of my research about the atoms this much: There is no matter as such! All matter originates and exists only by virtue of a force which brings the particles of an atom to vibration and holds this most minute solar system of the atom together … We must assume behind this force the existence of a conscious and intelligent Mind. This Mind is the matrix of all matter.

Max Planck, “father” of quantum physics, in Das Wesen der Materie


I used to be a scientist. As coordinator of oceanographic research with what is now the National Research Foundation, I was tasked with keeping up to date with all new developments in science. My deep curiosity about how things really are had previously led me to question the foundations of religion, which in many cases is simply a fearful egoic response to proclaimed truths that were not understood. Now it was leading me to question the foundations of science.

At first I really enjoyed it. What I enjoyed most was the contact with so many different new people, and I always made a point of it to keep contact with the students who did much of the work, but had nothing to do with the funding game. As I discovered more of the game, I lost interest. It felt sterile. I became a voluntary counsellor with the Life Line telephone counselling service in Pretoria, and it was like entering an oasis in the desert. I was entering the realm of feeling, the essence of being human! I resigned as scientist and focused my life on dealing with the human psyche. It was here that I discovered Carl Rogers and the paradox of group process.

I discovered the difference between what is generally called “knowledge” and the deep personal knowledge called gnosis in Greek. We talk about scientific knowledge, but science is not about knowledge at all. Science is about theories that try to explain an “objective” reality outside us. Theories start as human ideas or hypotheses. With the aid of the scientific method and logical argumentation, “proof” is then sought of these hypotheses or theories. It’s all in the mind. Literally. All “subjective” experience – and therewith the essence of being human – is dismissed forthwith.

Scientific “proof” is never permanent. It always remains an idea; an intellectual concept that can be changed, and often is. What happens in practice is that these ideas, such as the idea that all life originated through a random process of natural selection, become beliefs. When scientists (often the most brilliant ones) start questioning the beliefs or paradigms, they usually get ridiculed, marginalized, vilified, ostracized and the like, as happens in all other human endeavours. Even though the essence of science is to falsify and reject theories that do not hold true, in practice, as Max Planck put it: “A new scientific truth does not triumph by convincing its opponents and making them see the light, but rather because its opponents eventually die, and a new generation grows up that is familiar with it.”

Science as it is presently understood can never understand ultimate reality, because we – and therefore “subjective” experience – are part of it. As I have realized through many years of searching and suffering, and as many sages through the ages have tried to point out, ultimate reality cannot be understood as an intellectual concept, but can only be experienced in wholeheartedness – the integration of mind and heart. Hence “The kingdom of heaven is within you.” Nobody who has truly experienced this knowing can ever doubt again.

Herein I discovered the paradox of life: ultimate universal Truth or Reality can only be found through subjective experience.

This has enormous implications. The Renaissance and the scientific revolution were the response to the absolute corruption and lust for power that had taken over the Roman Catholic Church. As science apparently started understanding the “laws of nature” and this understanding led to a phenomenal explosion of technology, exactly the same process as had taken place in religion now took place again. Technology was hijacked by those in power. Today most technology is controlled by a few large corporations and individuals.

Furthermore, as happened in religion, the original purity and authenticity of science was subverted. Today most research is funded by the very corporations that control technology. In this way pressure is exerted both overtly and covertly on scientists to publish only results that confirm the dogma preached by the corporations; dogma aimed at controlling the masses as much as religion did (and still does).

Science is reductionist by nature. It tries to reduce what it is studying to its smallest components, study these components and then deduct the nature of the original phenomenon studied from the parts. The principle of holism that the whole is more than the sum of its parts is clearly rejected in this approach. So is anything that cannot be measured and quantified. In this way, instead of admitting that some aspects of reality are simply not accessible to science, in practice a belief has arisen that these aspects do not exist. Modern biology virtually exclusively functions on this belief, as verbalized so eloquently by Richard Dawkins.

It is in the interest of large corporations that this belief is maintained. Only what is measurable can be quantified, patented and therefore controlled. It is also in the interest of these corporations that anything that contradicts the premises of its dogma be ridiculed, banned or otherwise eliminated. An employee of one of these large corporations once accidentally (?) admitted that his company had a whole department specifically aimed at ridiculing, vilifying and dismissing all scientific research that contradicted the vested interests of the company. It is well known that large corporations work closely with governments in this respect. Laws that make organic farming difficult, prohibit alternative medicines, etc. are examples.

The huge corporations and financial institutions generally also own the media, with the result that the media tend to promote the dogma that serves these institutions. They also directly influence governments.

Anything that is not measurable is not patentable, and therefore not controllable. This constitutes a threat to commercial interests. It is therefore once again in the interest of those in power that no credibility be given to any “alternative” approaches to healing, agriculture, etc.

Let me stress here that not everything “alternative” is necessary valid or useful. There are probably as many falsehoods in these fields as there are in the corporate world. However, many of them are valid. How do we know the difference?

Through authenticity and intuition. We know in the depth of our being when something is true or not. But, of course, because such knowing also does not serve the vested interests, it has generally been discredited in modern society. Our education systems focus on learning what serves the dominant worldview of the day; not on encouraging learners to trust themselves. We are told that they have the answers for us: preachers, doctors, scientists, chemists, teachers and the like.

Everywhere the hidden curriculum of schooling initiates the citizen to the myth that bureaucracies guided by scientific knowledge are efficient and benevolent. Everywhere this same curriculum instils in the pupil the myth that increased production will provide a better life. And everywhere it develops the habit of self-defeating consumption of services and alienating production, the tolerance for institutional dependence, and the recognition of institutional rankings. The hidden curriculum of school does all this in spite of contrary efforts undertaken by teachers and no matter what ideology prevails.(Ivan Illich, Deschooling Society)

During the early development of medical science, “mental diseases” were generally regarded as incurable, and “mental patients” kept locked away. Sigmund Freud was the first significant person to delve into the nature of “mental illness”, and to demonstrate the existence of the “unconscious”. When he dared to link his first observations of “hysteria” to sexual molestation as children, he was vilified, ridiculed and ostracized. Only when he came up with theories more than a decade later that implicitly released adults from guilt by implying that children themselves have an interest in sexuality did he become acceptable again.

But Freud also had his limitations. He became dogmatic, and refused to have himself analyzed.

One of his students, Carl Jung, whom he was very fond of and initially regarded as his successor, moved beyond the boundaries of Freud’s sexual theories, and beyond the boundaries of reductionist science. In his authentic search for truth, he moved into the field of consciousness, and came up with concepts such as the “shadow” and the “universal unconscious”.

Freud’s theories became the basis of psychology for a long time, until other theories started becoming fashionable. Jung, however, did not become very fashionable, probably for the simple reason that, as he pointed out, most of us are in denial. We don’t want to look at what we don’t like looking at. Yet even Freud, and psychology in general, is often regarded as “pseudo-scientific” by natural scientists, for the simple reason that it is so difficult to quantify phenomena of consciousness. Psychiatry, on the other hand, is more often regarded by the scientific orthodoxy as valid because it supports the (unfounded) medical theory that problems in consciousness are the result of chemical imbalances in the brain. Almost 300 “disorders” are identified in the latest DSM manual for psychiatrists – and all of them have some kind of drug prescribed to treat them! So is the problem really credibility, or is it the vested interest of pharmaceutical companies?

Science is not bad. Not at all. On the level of physicality it has given us much. As such, there is nothing wrong with pharmaceutical drugs. I have often used them, and they can be very useful. However, they don’t solve anything; they merely cover them up. We would not have aeroplanes, cars, laser surgery or mobile phones without science. Nor would we have all the increasingly sophisticated weaponry that makes mass murder a kind of computer game.

And that’s the problem. Max Planck again: “Science cannot solve the ultimate mystery of nature. And that is because, in the last analysis, we ourselves are a part of the mystery that we are trying to solve.”

Science has not, and is inherently unable to solve the mystery of human consciousness. In fact, it has increasingly been used by that consciousness to develop instruments of violence, war and destruction, thereby increasing our problems. Ascribing consciousness to chemical processes in the brain is a very convenient cop-out, a kind of non-explanation, as more and more scientists and medical experts are beginning to acknowledge.

The only logical consequence of our present denialist approach is complete self-destruction. If this is not what we want, as we proclaim daily, a drastically different approach is needed.

The answer has been around for as long as humanity itself. In the words inscribed in the temple of Apollo at Delphi: gnothi seauton – know yourself.

During the last few decades many “channelings” of Jesus (or Jeshua) and other divine entities have appeared, some of which have sold many millions of copies: A Course in Miracles, A Course of Love, The Way of Mastery, Letters from Christ, Conversations with God, The Urantia Book, The Jeshua Channelings, Jesus: My Autobiograpy and more. Although greatly differing in style and approach, they all have exactly the same message: Jesus was greatly misinterpreted, and it is this misinterpretation that has caused so much suffering on earth. It was only the misinterpretation of his teachings that made it possible for the Church to become so power hungry and corrupt.

From a “scientific” point of view, of course, this is all a lot of hogwash. Yet deep within ourselves, if we were to be truly honest with ourselves, we know it to be true.

So what did Jesus say? In essence, that the Truth is within us. Not through belief (of which there are thousands of different varieties that all claim to be “true”), but through authentic searching and self-knowledge – and through feeling.

The misteachings of religion and science have led us to believe that we are powerless victims – of God, of the Devil, of fate, of physical and biological laws, of tyrants or evil governments, of murderers and rapists, whatever. What Jesus and others came to teach was the exact opposite. In all the modern channelings, in the Gospel of Thomas, which many theologists now believe to be the original gospel, and even in the distorted gospels in the Bible, Jesus taught the power of who we are. We have the power to change the world – but only if we accept this power and take full responsibility for it. This is what so many of us are afraid to do. Yet the mess the world is in has been created by exactly this power – through fear. Only once we remove the blocks of fear within ourselves can we discover the Love that we are, and with that the power to create the world we want. This we cannot do by fighting fear or evil, but by letting it come to the surface to be exposed for what it is – an illusion.

What the Church did and large corporations do now is not “evil”. It is based on fear. Corrupt church or government officials are not evil. Nor are the managers of large corporations. They are afraid. Very afraid. Judgement of fear only increases the fear – and its consequences.

It is through a process of searching, stumbling and falling, rising up again, frequent depression, suicidal tendencies, intense joy, reading of many different authors, questioning, and especially learning to feel, that I came to the deep peaceful certainty and wholehearted understanding that I have now. With that I am now beginning to experience the power of creating in love. The key word to all of this is authenticity. I had to fearlessly face all my false beliefs, become aware of how much I judged, explore the darkest corners in myself and learn to be absolutely true to myself.

There is something else, of course. Although many people like what Jesus said, not that many, and especially not those who approach Jesus from a scientific perspective, believe that he truly performed miracles. Our scientific “knowledge” (belief) has made us as unbelieving as the Pharisees, and therefore we experience no miracles.

I have experienced miracles. There is no way that what happened to me in the USA recently (see this blog), and in fact often before, could be called “coincidence”. As I jokingly conferred to the man who asked me whether I had performed any miracles yet, I haven’t walked on water yet, but I have certainly experienced miracles. I left my job with the FRD almost 30 years ago to “live in faith”. I cannot “prove” this to anybody, but in the depth of my being I now know with absolute certainty that ultimately only Divine Reality is real.

For many years now I have had the calling to do the kind of healing work that this website is all about. I realize now that, although the calling was true, I was not ready. Now I am at the stage where I feel ready.

It can be scary to face our “dark” side. Very scary. The underlying reason for this is that deep down, and often unconsciously, we still believe ourselves to be inherently evil. It is this belief that keeps us in hell. Such is the power of our mind. We are afraid that, if we allow our “negative” feelings to surface, we are going to experience the true horror of our evil nature, and that we won’t be able to bear that. That’s exactly what happened to us as children, and why we suppressed so much. And so we’d rather not go there. Apart from the fact that it is not so, it has consequences. As Carl Jung put it: “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.” That’s what’s happening in the word today. All chaos, violence and destruction in the world is the direct result of projected human pain. Projection happens when we deny – and therefore refuse to take responsibility for – what we think and feel.

The phenomenal paradox of authentic healing is that, instead of finding ever more horror when we allow our “dark side” to surface, the pain dissipates and we ultimately find a joy that transcends the understanding of the mind: the joy that “passeth all understanding”. As A Course in Miracles puts it: “The deeper you go into the blackness of the ego’s foundation, the closer you come to the Love that is hidden there. And it is this that frightens you.”

This is not just another theory. It is gnosis, as in gnothi seauton. It is a truth that I – and many others – have discovered and are discovering through authentic personal experience. I cannot “prove” it, because “proof” is a mental construct, the effectiveness of which depends entirely on the willingness of the receiver to accept (believe) it. Yet I cannot possibly describe – nor hide – the joy that comes from awakening: it goes far beyond what the human mind can understand. With this kind of knowledge, who still needs “proof”?

I do, however, have a deep passion to share it and help undo the remaining blocks to this joy!

PS. Having said what I did about religion and science, let me qualify this. There have been – and are – many truly authentic religious seekers, and there have been – and are – many truly authentic scientists who seek only the Truth. Many of them have been crucified, literally or otherwise, and today there are powerful forces undermining these scientists. On the other hand, scientists like Michio Kaku, one of the originators of String Theory, are truly progressing towards the recognition of Divinity in nature.

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